depressed.

BUSTED IS GONE. i'M SO DEPRESSED. THEY HAVEN GOT THEIR CONCERT HERE IN SINGAPORE.. T.T



have been cryin n cryin n cryin in skool. haiz. tis sucks. ppl in klass.. they suck. bewi bad. wen i cried they made fun of mie. haiz. I HATE U ALL, hell wif yew. >:c haiz. dunoe wad to rite le. min dun tok to mie. fine den. better off dead den ur bestie not tokin to yew lor. i wish i could jux drop dead. todae after EATIN durin recess i feel like vomitin. i didnt force it out. i'm jux too full i guess. den mic n hl told mie to go counsellin. I DUN WAN.. so i cried. haiz. after tat.. art. got a lil mood cuz i LOVE art. after skool i didnt eat. didnt drink. i jux sat there wif weizhen. no1 cared esp. yew.. i feel like diein on da spot cuz yew didnt care. i dunoe if i wan yew to care for mie anot. i told yew mie prob u tell evey1. den now tis prob so big le. i need to go counsellin. ppl may tink i'm mad cuz i cried at da tot of counsellin. yew all jux dun understand how SCARY counsellin is to mie.. it freaks mie out. b4 maths i stood at da corridor lookin rite dwn below. i wish i jux could fall over n lay dead. cuz i dun feel tat tis lonely world needs mie tis kinda "sad, depressed, skinny but fat, superduper self conscious and miserable gurl"
few daes ago. i tot i woz becumin okie. den tis came. i tot i woz goin to be tat cheerful gurl again i woz so wrong. i became more worst n even have serious tots of die'in. no1 understand my prob. sx i tink he's mad at mie. makes mie even more depressed. i hate wen ppl hate mie. T.T unbearable. i'm so miserable now. so weak. so depressed so sad i could cry n cry non stop for da whole yr. maybe not enuff tears for tat. okie. at least one dae. but i cannot cry n cry. cuz.. idun wan my family to tink i haf probs. i dun wan em to wry. i've become a bad tempered gal at home. i would fuss over small stuff. i would cry. i will break dwn. throw tanturm n stuff.
after skool, as i walked home. i feel so inferior, sad, lonely.. but a lil bit of carefree feelin. it's like. at last i'm all alone. without family fwens. with strangers around. no1 noes bout mie. no1 noes i'm sad depressed. aint tat good? ^^ feels so great. althou strangers mayb SCARY but.. they dun noe a ting bout mie. they may treat mie like a normal person. or maybe tink tat i'm jux a cheerful gal!! ^^ wee.. but it's stil lonely to be alone.

tml maybe goin for counsellin. gonna jot dwn all my probs. but i cant rmb em. n i'm scared to ritin em. i can cry while ritin.. wish mie luck tml.

to ppl hu r readin tis.
tell mie da truth. du u tink i'm mad?